The Risk throw me to the Hell..

Erm..ak ase sgt mlas mau update blog ak.. Ak xmood sgt arini... Ya..maybe org ckp smangat dh lari..GONE!!..
Far away than i thought..

       Ak nk tny kt sni..sape yg hrp prpisahan jd?? Bgitau ak... lau org itu yg d syngi  xmngkin ad istilah org laen meskipn prngai diri kita x tnjukkan ap yg ad dlm hti... Lau dy pham dri ak mcm mna tntu dy xkn rsa ap2...hny kwn..ap istilah kwn?? KAWAN adlh org yg hadir dlm khidpn utk djdikn shabat... Ak byk kwn tp bkn sumer adlh shabat....Ak bkn nk cter psl kwn or shabat skrg...Ak nk cter psl c dy..

      Ya,c dy keksih hti,kksih yg kurindui,kucintai slalu dn slamany... tpwlau bgaimanapn kuatnya ak.. Ak still lmah.. Ak still sorg pmpn..mana mngkin ak dpt bendung prasaan ak.. DOWN!!!DOWN!! till the end..no limit..prasaan ak hri nie lg truk dri ak down msa mslh kuarga ak...T_T

       KNP??? Ak mau tny itu..yaa..knp mesti dy brtny?? Knp mesti dy berulang kali tny meskipn tlh mnta maaf??
Lau dy syg ak,KNP?? mnta perpisahan?? Ya,maybe prmintaan dy x dtunaikn... Skrg ak kotakn jnji ak..ak tunaikn sgalanya.. Kita dh xad ap2 kn... Ya,ak trima hakikat tue..meskipn ap yg dilakukan..ak xmungkin mlalui phubungan dgnny..Ketahuilh hatiku PATAH... klau KACA..ianya BERDERAI,klau CERMIN,ia CALAR,.. tp knp ak ckp patah?? Sbb hti ak yg kukuh sprti besi itu..tlah PATAH...ak bina kekuatn mental utk hadapi smuany.. Btul kata org,bkn mudah ubat hati yg luka..kata2 x mnjelaskn ap yg kita rsa.. mnenangkn org yg mlalui situasi ini xmngkin dpt meredakn ttpi skadar mengurangkn.....

       Ak bkn mcm org lain dpt mluahkn mlalui kata2..bila ak brsuara..yg kluar bkn kata2ku.. tp tangisan..Ya hny tangisan... APA yg korg blh fham tntg tangisan?? Tnp kata2 korg xkn fham..yg korg tau ialah anggapan...
Anggapan itu dn ini....Ak xmampu mngeluarkn kata hati mlalui kata2...jd ak hny mampu mluahkn dlm tulisan ini...CORETAN diri ak... Ak dh byk kali ckp yg diriku amat mnghargai kwn baik laki n gurl... wlau mcm mna pn..ad 'PAKWE' skalipn..ak lbih brsama kwn2...sbb ak pasti..bila dgn bf..bila2 masa pn blh.. hp ad kn...lau KWN??? bkn slalu kita jmp kn..

     Nk ckp 6ber hp?? Ak xmngkin memberi 6ber hp ak pd mana2 laki....mahupun kwn yg ak knl...even kwn skol lma ak pn xtau 6ber hp ak... Except yg tlh jadi sbhagian hidup ak.. Ak bkn hipokrit... Blakang wat bnda lain,dpan wat bnda lain... Blakang bf ak brgaul mesra ngan kwn2 even in game...YA...HS5 tue..... Dpan bf ak still mcm tue sbb ak bkn hipokrit..mesra2 bila d blakang,jd xmesra n xtgur sapa d depan... Jd slah ak ka???  Ak xmahu lau dy dpt tau dri kwn2 dy ak mcm mna bila d blkang dy...bila d dpan lain pula...HIPOKRIT..bkn cara ak..silap byk la...

      Tp maybe ak further think lbeh kot..Ya slap ak...Ak xtau knp...hati ak...ermm...ak akn buat ia kmbali sembuh mcm dlu...Ya...susah tp insya allah...skrg CINTA ILAHI ak kejar...ak keciciran kn?? YA,btol...ak serah pada Allah S.W.T diri ak yg mmg milik Allah S.W.T pn...cuma ak yg xsdar dri.... AHH..malu ak pd diri nie.... ermm...nie la dugaan n ujian...Bila bgini bru la ingatkn Allah S.W.T... Allah S.W.T still sygkn ak..tp knp ak sering brpaling dn ikot ap yg Allah S.W.T mungkar??

    X apa la...ak tetapkn HATI..segeralah sembuh agar ak bisa mnjalani hidup sperti biasa...AMIN... Moga Allah  S.W.T membantu diriku... Huu...pedih...:'( biar pedih,itu mnjanjikn kita tabah.. JGN ambil risiko lau ak xmampu..tht the best word for me..serve me right yay..hmm.... :((

     Till the end...,no searching,no person,YES LOVE,but for ALLAH S.W.T..When Allah want me to have someone,Allah S.W.T will lead me to him...
Insya Allah........Amin..alhamdulillah ats ujian nie... Salam sejahtera,salam peringatan, salam prjuangan, salam ukhwah....^^ Assalamualaikum...

LOVE LIKE WOE-the ready set

OMJordan

MY LOVE JORDAN!!

J-j-j-j R

whoa oh oh oh oh
whoa oh oh oh oh
I kinda feel like it dont make 
like-like-like it dont make
feel like it dont make se-se-se-se-sense

I'm thinking, baby, you and I are undeniable
But I'm finding out loves unreliable
I'm giving all I got just to make you stay
Or am I just a roadblock in your way?

Cause you're a pretty little windstorm out on the boulevard
Something like a sunset, oh you're a shooting star
And I might drive myself insane
If those lips aren't speakin my name

Cause I got some intuition,
or maybe Im superstitious
But I think you're a pretty sweet pill
that Im swallowing down
To counter this addiction
you've got me on a mission
Tell me darling, can I get a break somehow?
How can I say no?

Chorus
Shes got a love like woe
(whoa oh oh oh)
Girls got a love like woe
(whoa oh oh oh ba-da-da)
I kinda feel like it dont make sense
Because you're bringing me in
and now you're kicking me out again
Loved so strong, then you moved on
Now I'm hung up in suspense,
Because you're bringing me in
And then you're kicking me out again

Its like a hurricane, speed train, shes a moving car
Catch her in the fast lane, oh I gotta know,
Can I keep up with her pace?
Kick it into gear when I see that face

You can take up all my time cause you're the only one
That can make a storm cloud break
Pulling up the sun
And I cant get caught in the rain
Can I get your lips to speak my name?

Cause I got some intuition,
or maybe I'm superstitious
But I think you're a pretty sweet pill
that I'm swallowing down
To counter this addiction
you've got me on a mission
Tell me darling, can I get a break somehow?
How can I say no?

Chorus

Shes got a love like woe
(whoa oh oh oh)
Girls got a love like woe
(whoa oh oh oh ba-da-da)
I kinda feel like it dont make sense
Because you're bringing me in
and now you're kicking me out again
Loved so strong, then you moved on
Now I'm hung up in suspense,
Because you're bringing me in
And then you're kicking me out again

Cause we only have one life
The timing and the moment,
All seem so right
So would you say you're mine?
(We'll be just fine)
Would you say you're mine?
(We'll be just fine)

Chorus
Shes got a love like woe
(whoa oh oh oh)
Girls got a love like woe
(whoa oh oh oh ba-da-da)

I kinda feel like it dont make sense
Because you're bringing me in
and now you're kicking me out again
Loved so strong, then you moved on
Now I'm hung up in suspense,
Because you're bringing me in
And then you're kicking me out again
(repeat)

so coolllllllll!!!!!!!!!! his hair n face..fascinated me... <3 <3

New Lifestyle!!

Firstly, I wanna to introduce myself..Yay,opkoz la kte kne saling knl mngenali antara satu sma lain kn? hihi.. =)
Urmm...for information kurunk ark..ak nie xtau hape guneny blog nie sbnrny..smpai nti one day bler ak tau gneny..ak bkal maklumkn ea..haha..

Ok,nme pnuh ak tntu la secret sbb ermm..ak xske publisiti..haha...xpsl2 ak pasan lak kt sni.. Nme pnuh ak Shinohara Aira or snang2 Hira...xsusah kn? Nme jepun tue complicated la kot bg korg nk sebutny... Tp ad yg lg complicated iaitu, MY BELOVED FAMILY pny panggilan,at KTYAGA or mostly known as Kolej Yayasan Alor Gajah..iaitu SHOPSHISHU... Commonly nme ak kt FB pn Shynohyierha Shopshishu...haha.. N even KTYAGA byk melakar prasaan xpueh ati pd ak n adk bradk ak yg len serta xlpe kenkwn tp d situ la muleny prtemuan kami....an an an???hehe.. =P

Ak ske story2 gini..so hope korg xboring ea..nti ak ak post lg sumting new tok korg..ak ad cerpen n novel karya ak tok tatapan engkorang sumer..both in two languanges..so we can choose whether Malay or English.. But surely it the different story la..haha...Opss..sorry terspeaking d sni pulee...

Ak nk story psl FAMILY ak di sni... Asalny kami berSEMBILAN but ats mslh teknikal yg brlaku..skrg tlh brkurng kpd 7 org..Adk bradk tersyg,jgn forget ea..si kechiq tuh pn adk bradk kter gak an...hehe.. :) tp si kechiq nie len umah ngan ak n housemates ak.. So,bykny story ak about housemates ak larh...

At the first,ak msok k KTYAGA,ak sgt takot..yer r sape la nk kwn ngan ak nie kn..my preferences pn xlawa..outfit??Jgn ckp larh..spnjng ari lau blh ak nk baju kurung jek..smpai Along pn letih nengok ak nie..haha..pape pn Along mmg gitu tp tue la yg wat ak epi pn..xde sore dy..mak aih sunyi oden..hihi..

Parent ak wat kputusn mau hntr ak k sni slpas mndgr taklimat la tntg kolej nie..pokokny mse taklimat tue sumerny manis r...semut pn lau bleh nk mkn jek..tp xleh la..haha.. Ak sbnrny kurng minat dlm bisnes study nie..but One day,ak terbaca mngenai Billionaire yg brjaya sbb bisnes jer..kate dy kte bkn keje tok uet tp uet yg akn keje tok kte...

Ak fkir n selidik...YUP! Btol uet keje tok dy..Dy ckp..utk jd jutawan bknny susah..kte hny perlu tahu cara n bgaimana nk gne opportunity sbaikny...N paling pnting,dy ckp asas dlm prakaunan penting dlm idop kte x kire la wat bisnes k x...Sbb hari2 kte brmain ngan kira2,6ber,n akaun... Basic yg ak ingat tok akaun ialah KISS..Bkn kiss yg korg fkirkn tp KISS is stand for Keep It Simple Stupid. Not all ppl know the mean inside the word sbb ak tny kwn ak sumerny xfham..byk kali ak trng tp dorg ttp xfham but dorg sokong kputusn ak..
TEKIUS MY FRENZ...^^

Hari Khamis pas bace bku tue,my dad take drastic decision xnk hntr ak..so ak pn xkesah la..ak pn leh troskn Form6 ak kt SMK Clifford. But pd hari Jumaat mlm Sabtu tepat kol 12.30pg xslap ak..mak ak kejutkn ak tok bincngkn hal ak ke kolej nie..Ak yg mamai nie hny anggukkn jer la even my heart is beating very fast till  pengsan pn mau eh..So, ak tnp maklumkn pd kenkwn skol tros dtg k kolej pd ptg Sabtu tue dgn bantuan PA ak Puan Munawwarah.. Ak tgk kt library time tue ak kirany yg late skali r daftar an...

Hbes urusn ak tros ikot pmbantu PA ak,pegi k Tower 1,upenyer Tower 1 dh pnoh..so dorg trpkse bukak Tower 2 yg mrupakn tower baru r pd kolej nie.. Smpai kt Tower 2 jer,ak dh neves..yer la risau tntg housemates...kot2 xngam ker..kn susa...maybe leh nges2 ak kt Melaka nih,sape mau jmput ak?? Parah jdiny...

Mse tue,housemates ak ad 7 org jer sbb sorg lg stay nite ngan parent dy at hotel if i'm not mistaken la.. N then yg ak ase klakar giler mse dorg knlkn dri..ak xdpt engat satu nme pn..Siyes ckp mcm angin lalu jer ak dgr n just angguk jer.. Mak ak yg mesra bersembang ngan dorg mcm mak ak lak yg stay situ..hehe..

Then,pas dh knl2 tue,parent ak tros ajak ak kuar g mkn2....mklum la brtolak from Perak pg2 xde sarapan sumer...so ak mnahan la lapar..hehe..Bler ak balik,ak msok umah n dorg sumer dok tnggu ak..Tau psl aper?
Dorg riso ak xleh msok umah sbb kunci satu jer...Dh tue ak kuar xbgtau dorg...Sian dorg tnggu ak...
SORRY SGT2...ak xengat la plak n mse tue ak malu sgt nk pnggil korg tok bgtau...hee.. =P

Ok,start kmi pnggil adk bradk bler..dorg sumer amek kputusn tok letak nme pnggilan mnegikut D.O.B..
Wktu dorg bincng2 tue..ak ngah mnunaikn solat n pas jer abes solat.. dorng tny tarikh lahir ak n mnetapkan pnggilan tok ak iaitu Angah sbb ak lhir bln 2..haha... And then,pada hari isnin menggu dpnny kmi dh mula start bljr..tnp sesi orientasi sbb kmi adalh intake yg lmbt... So,dgn trkontang kangtingny kmi d tmpt org..mncari la jadual n klas..brtny pd org n kt pjabt sumer r... Bler dorng tny kami tower kdiaman yg mne...dorg agk trkejut sbb kmi jwb Tower 2..Nyatalh hny kmi shj student yg mnetap at Tower 2 on tht time..haha... D sbabkn xde jadual n xtau kelas kt mne..so kmi bgaikn plancong..mrayau sne sni smpailh kmi kt KAFE..

Kt kafe,kmi brtemu AYAH or Encik Rahim.. Kmi start pnggil Encik Rahim,AYAH sbb dy mcm ayah bg kmi yg mrantau d Melaka nie utk study.. Ayah adlh dri bhagian HEP n mngawal didiplin student..Mse kmi nyatakn mslah kmi,ayh bwk kmi k library tok amek jadual n klas kmi mula keesokkn hriny... So,sejak itu mule la wujudny FAMILY ak kt KTYAGA...iaitu...ALONG,ACIK,ALANG,UDE,UCU,UTEH n ADEQ but now...hny tnggal ALONG,ALANG,UDE,UTEH n ADEQ...^^ SYGSS KORUNK SUMER... <3 <3

                                                          My FamiLy in KTYAGA...^^